3.6

Armin comes back to Katja, who just got up.
He says: "Good morning, Vanelin!"
She says: "Good morning Armin. Is there anything new about the death of your mother."
"Looks like we are lucky. The police do not seem to have the control yet. There is lying a thick mist over my mother."
"And what does that mean?"
"Yesterdays evening had hundreds of reviews in my head. All were different, all were new and beautiful."
"Armin, you killed your mother."
"Vanelin, you were right. I could never say how much I love you, no matter how hard I try. But that does not matter: because that I love you is the curse of god, that I would rather enjoy than name it."
"You killed your mother."
"She was already dead."
"But you took her last chance for reanimation."
"She already smelled like death, she was rotten."
"As long as she smelled, as long as she rot, she lived - a little. Or can you name a dead moor. Dead trees do not rot. Rotten trees offer a shelter to all the smallest forms of life. Surely your mother began, slowly at first, to live again in all these years."
"She never lived."
"How could you know? Do you know her soul so well?"
"She had no soul."
"Armin, the smallest pebble has a soul and that's enough for a thousand reasons to be respected."
"I just had one more reason..."
"You are lying."
"And you don't say the truth."
"Why don't you just kill me?"
Armin takes the gun from his pocket and aims Katja.
He says: "Why don't I just kill you?"
He places the gun on the floor and says: "Your eyes, your clear blue eyes, your living eyes - Vanelin..."
She says: "Coward. Pitiful coward."
"You live. You live. You live."
"If you had looked straight in the eye of your mother..."
"They were the eyes of a robot, of a human machine, a soulless camera, a... "
"... A poor person, as I was before you came. Why did you awaken me and sent her to sleep? Wasn't I rotten, when you first met me?"
"No alarm-clock in the world could have awakened her. I do not know why you try to make me remorse. But you won't get it, that is as useless as a reanimation of my mother."
"Are you really sure?"
"Deadly sure."
Katja walks to the door and says: "Then it is useless to reanimate yourself. Fine."
Armin says: "Vanelin."
Katja walks out and closes the door.

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